Life has been opening up to us lately in an almost magical way. At a time when circumstances might look to an outsider (or a well meaning insider even) like we should be mourning, suffering, and constantly weeping over broken things, something unseen lifts us into bliss over and over again.
It is easy now to imagine that we will one day look back on these years with lots of joy and thankfulness and not so much sorrow. In fact, the blessings in life are overtaking the troubles at an alarming rate. I was not able to say that sincerely six months ago. I was faking it till I was making it.
Much the way I suspect this guy does.
Happily, despair is now deep in the past.
The larger my appetite for living grows, the faster time slips away from me. Is that a sign of growing older? Or one of growing happier?
Weekly, Handsome and I see joy and reward added to our plate far beyond what we deserve. Scarcely a day finishes without one of us looking over at the other with a smile, shaking our head about "how cool that is" or "what an answer." This is a wonderful condition to be living, but I have to admit that sometimes it gives me tremors.
My weakness whispers to my heart that it cannot last. That my hope is unfounded, our pleasures fleeting, my happiness a vain imagining. Puke! What poison!
Refusing to succumb to this slippery slope, I actively scrape up every memory of prayers answered and dreams fulfilled out of the blue, focusing my eyes and heart on the abundant beauty surrounding us.
I fix my schedule around repetitive domestic tasks, animal care taking, and working on every constructive thing I can think of. Then I indulge in hobbies I might not always have time for.
I take Siestas.
Handsome works himself to the point of dangerous exhaustion, both at home and at his office. And together we treasure, among others, the gifts of romance, faith, family, and friendship in our life.
By the way, we hold close to us
some of the world's greatest,
most interesting, most loving,
most FUN people ever invented.
if you are Valerie Bertinelli,
who always looks amazing.
We are so madly in love
with our friends and family,
it is nauseating.
Thusly I dive back into another day. And before I know it the day is really too short to do it all, to enjoy it all. Life isn't giving me quite enough time to share again everything I have been given. I find myself trying to just keep up with the beauty and wonder of the world at my fingertips, and no spell ever breaks; life just continues. And I love it.
So whatever you are facing, keep facing it. Don't let any fear, circumstances, mistakes, or difficulty shake you off course. However dark your storm, remember that especially in Oklahoma the weather can change with no warning. And you are resilient and blessed beyond your widlest dreams.